This is what I know about me #1

I'm starting this sub-blog of things I know about me. I find that as I get older, I am recognising patterns in my behaviour, moods, reactions and so on. It is relatively personal, so for those of you who do read this blog, you might want to by pass. This is going to be serious journal writing content, complete with Dear Kitty intro (jokes!) Naturally, others will read on and that's the nature of blogs. To limit this from occurring, I will publish only in this post, adding to it as I need to. I am also blocking comments so that I can pretend no one is reading this. This part of the blog is purely for me. Myspace....mmm, whose space?

So.... this is what I know about me, so far...

I know that in Week 3 of my "cycle" I am unmotivated and find it difficult to motivate myself.
At this same time, I have shortlived moments of extreme happiness and sillyness, usually preceeded by feeling critical of myself, my image (yet at the same time, I know this is not how I really feel). At these times, I often wonder if this is the real me, or whether the other times in my cycle are me. I have little enthusiasm for intimacy, but lots of enthuiasm for big cuddles. I feel like a wounded bird, that needs to be looked after. I don't take others' criticisms well at this time, even if they would not normally upset me and I have little interest in being receptive of others or meeting new people (not a great time to meet wedding planners as happened today). I am thinking of strategies for working through these times and have come up with the following:
Avoid having to make too many serious decisions (I am often indecisive too- which I really dislike)
Drink warm cups of tea
Meditate- put on a CD and find a quiet (Holly-free) place for some reflective time
Don't worry about not having gone to the gym- you will in weeks 1&2 to well and truly make up for what you miss in Week 3
Make sure you don't overstretch the budget going in to week 3 because this is when finances worry you the most. Leave a bill unpaid a little longer so that you have a few extra dollars to give you a feeling of security (yes, we-can-afford-petrol-this-week freedom!)
Add to your blog, read, watch a movie, succumb to the "relaxed" (what you think is lazy and lethargic) feeling knowing that it is short term. Don't beat yourself up about not being female of the year. This can be your down time. You time. Make the most of it!
Daniel will wait. His balls won't go blue and drop off. Find other ways to please him :) You don't have to be all things, all the time.

This is a great start... I know more than I thought.
M x (January 29th, 2007)