It's been a long time... I shouldn't have left you...

I think that's the lyrics of some really bad nineties song... it will come to me tonight in my sleep.

I'm back to my darling blog because I have a little bit of stress to unwind and I feel like writing about it.

Today, after a LONG 8 week wait, I received a dry, ruthless email telling me I had not been successful for the job I applied for. This job was my saving grace. My one way ticket outta here. My stress reducing technique. And yet, I feel totally fine about it... aside from feeling slightly dejected that i wasn't even considered for an interview. It's the first job I've applied for (and felt perfectly suited for) that I didn't even get an interview. In hindsight, I feel so grateful that i didn't push ahead with my plans to tell the Prin and AP and I can see that although my heart is not happy about this at the moment, my head knows it is for the best.

It would help me to list the reasons that this is good and give me some perspective about the whole siutation, so I will do that now. For any poor soul who stumbles across my blog thinking this might be interesting and worthwhile, or at least literary and entertaining, I apologise. This blog is purely for me to vent and ramble and unwind. And so my list begins:

Reasons why it is good that i didn't get the new job...
1. I can watch JD's baby bump grow and share in her pregnancy
2. I will get the payrise
3. I will get the holiday loading payment
4. We can plan our trip for December- January unconditionally
5. I will be on holidays in 7 days and again in Septemeber
6. I maintain my ongoing status
7. I don't have to carry heavy boxes to my car :)
8. I don't have to catch a one hour train to work each day
9. I work 12 minutes from home
10. It can only get better in Term 3 and 4
11. I can still be on the selection panel for the other team member
12. Hopefully I can choose someone who will be inspirational to motivate me
13. I don't have to spend more money on petrol or train tickets
14. I can still be home by 4:30 most days :)... That's a good one!
15. There will be no changes to the arrangements with Holly
16. I can still deposit DM's cheques easily and buy TF shakes down the street
17. I know what I am doing now
18. I can buy myself some Sportsgirl jeans and wear them to work
19. Better the devil you know in the end!

I know I still have some changes to make and I will have to re-energise myself for my old job, but I don't feel that that's impossible. I think Mum and Dad are happier about this too. And I know my sister thinks it is better in the long term. It's great to feel so loved and supported even when your plans don't go ahead.

Obviously, this is what's meant to be......